1.11.2018

Married without Kids to Married with Kids: Friendships


I had initially intended for this post to include my perspective at the time I started it (Married without Kids) and a friend's perspective (Married with Kids), however, it has just ended up sitting in my drafts forever. I had written the beginning of this post almost a year ago. So, instead of finding a guest for the second part, I am going to write it now that I am married with kids (even if he's only 7 months old). Enjoy.

Married without Kids
As I look towards June, I have been thinking a lot about how my friendships may change once I become a parent and how to prepare my friendships for this change. When many of my friends started to become parents, I started to feel really alone. Of course I was happy for them, but I also realized the implications of their new roles.  All of a sudden my once easily accessible friends became impossible to meet up with, rarely returned my text messages, and seemed completely distracted once we finally found a time to hang out together. Friendships I once treasured started to fade away. All of a sudden I became the "flexible" friend. I go 90 and you go 10.

I realize that parenthood is hard (of course my understanding is limited) and it's all about learning how to balance your child, marriage, and other obligations. I'm not trying to discredit that. Instead, I'm hoping to share my experience as someone on the other side of that friendship, the side of being married without kids so that maybe people in both seasons can understand the other side a bit better and strengthen their relationships as a result. I felt as if I became less valuable of a friend to my friends with kids and that's the feeling I absolutely don't want others to feel when I become a parent myself. I didn't know, and still don't know, what it looks like to be a good friend to my friends with kids. I'm not sure I have ever had a blatant conversation with a friend about this.

It's really important for me to stay relevant to my single friends and friends without kids once I become a parent. I realize my priorities will change and my schedule will be dictated by someone other than myself, but it's imperative to me that my friends don't feel the way that I did when my friends started to have kids. I don't want them to feel alone and I want them to know that even if our friendship doesn't look the same, I still treasure our friendship. I need our friendship. I can't promise that I won't sometimes talk about my kid or need our plans to be different than they might have been beforehand, but I can promise that I will be honest about where I'm struggling and I will try not to leave you out. I hope that I will be able to communicate with my friends when I'm struggling to balance everything so they know that it's not them, it's me. I hope I will be comfortable enough to invite my friends into these tough spaces rather than assume they don't want to be included or that I'm burdening them. I also hope that I can realize when my friends are going 90 for me, so that I can maybe try to go further than a 10 for them sometimes. So I can at least express appreciation even if I can't go more than 10. We're all trying our best here, right?

One year later... Married with Kids
Here I am, almost a year later, married with an almost seven-month-old! The transition to parenthood has been hardest on my marriage, if I am to be honest. We have had to figure out how to balance parenting, each other, our jobs, and our personal care (e.g., gym, time with friends). I feel like now that we have figured that out a bit more, friendships have returned to where they were pre-baby in terms of quality time (of course my friends my have a different perspective).

I have realized that, even after having Asa, my friends are still so important to my own mental and spiritual health. I need community to be a good parent. Sure, many of my friends ended up going 90 while I went 10 in the past few months, but I think we are returning to some sort of balance. It's natural for friendships to ebb and flow between who might need more at one time, and who might need more at another time. All relationships are that way. That's the beauty in having friends that stick with you through those times. You can pour into them when they need it, and they can pour into you when you need it.

In all honesty, I don't think the perspective I shared above has changed a whole lot now that I am a parent. I have realized, though, that finding the balance is harder for some than others so there are natural differences in my relationships because of that. I might see some friends with kids far more often than I see others, and that's alright for this season. I'm trying to practice more grace for others in these situations. The one thing that has changed, though, aside from my perspective, is simply the amount of time I have. I do have less free time on the evenings and weekends which has certainly limited the amount of time I can give to friends within those windows.

I am thankful to my single friends and friends without kids that have stuck with me through a time where maybe I needed a little more than I did before and wasn't able to reciprocate in the same way. Also, I might be guilty of talking about my kid too much, to be completely honest (sorry friends).

Which season, if either, are you in? What are your thoughts and feelings about friendships in your season?

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1.09.2018

Life: An Update


Hi friends. It has been a while, hasn't it? I know I've been somewhat present in this space, but not the kind of present I'd like to be. So, I figured maybe I'd do a bit of a life update.

Blog: The future of my blog is still uncertain. I don't imagine ever shutting it down as I'd like the living record to survive. However, I'd like you all to know that I'm no longer working with BibRave, which means your feed will no longer be bombarded with running-related content. I'm grateful to all of you who have stuck around this space through the years.

Family: Well, I have an almost 7 month old (on the 20th). I cannot believe how fast these 7 months have gone. Asa is the happiest baby and we are just enamored with him every single day. He still isn't the best sleeper, but we love him nonetheless. He has two teeth and is very close to crawling. If you're a friend or family member, you can catch updates on our family here.

Marriage: Adjusting to a new baby isn't exactly easy, especially when you add in a lack of sleep to the equation. I feel like Matt and I are finally getting into a new rhythm with everything. We recently started working through this study together and it has been great to refocus on our marriage.

School: Well, I am officially halfway through my fifth year as a PhD student. What?! We finally have an end date in sight and now know when we will be moving away from Missouri, we just won't know where for quite a while. This is all thanks to a grant I recently obtained. So grateful.

Faith: After Asa was born, I understandably fell out of reading my bible and spending time with God. I'm trying to be more intentional about both of these now and (of course) have noticed a huge difference since doing so.

Fitness: Well, running hasn't really been much of a thing. I had a hard time coming back postpartum, and now it is winter, so... FAIL. However, I have gotten back to hot yoga 1-2 times a week and it has been lovely. I got some new gear for Christmas which was just the motivation I needed. I hope to get back on my bike again soon when the whether is a bit more tolerable. I have a race coming up next month so pray for me.

Travel: In the last few months we have traveled to Arizona and Vermont. 2018 is already looking packed and includes a few trips to Arizona, an Alaskan cruise, and trips to San Diego, Tampa, Michigan, and Wisconsin (so far).

As we look towards 2018, what kind of content would you all like to see? I hope to be returning to this space more regularly with content that actually matters.  

I'd love to hear a bit about what you've been up to lately. Leave me a comment below!

12.28.2017

2017 Reading Challenge VII


Well... I dropped the ball. I would blame my baby, but really, I am basically just the worst blogger ever. This post will conclude my updates from the 2017 POPSUGAR Reading Challenge. I'm considering trying the 2018 challenge, but we will see. I love the idea of having prompts but I always end up finding books I really want to read that don't fit the categories, which results in me getting off track. Then there's the dreaded waitlist at the library. So many dilemmas.

2017 Reading Challenge
A book recommended by a librarian (thanks Kate!): The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas (In Progress)
A book that's been on your TBR list for way too long: Sacred Marriage by Gary Thomas
A book of letters: Where'd You Go, Bernadette by Maria Semple (Completed in May; 2/5 stars)
An audiobook: Prodigal God by Tim Keller (Completed in February; 3/5 stars)
A book by a person of color: Hidden Figures by Margot Lee Shetterly (Completed in August; 3/5 stars)
A book with one of the four seasons in the title: My First Summer in the Sierra by John Muir
A book that is a story within a story:
A book with multiple authors:
An espionage thriller:
A book with a cat on the cover: A Man Called Ove by Fredrick Backman (Completed in March;  4/5 stars)
A book by an author who uses a pseudonym: The Cuckoo's Calling by Robert Galbraith aka J.K. Rowling
A bestseller from a genre you don't normally read (horror): The Teacher by Katerina Diamond
A book by or about a person who has a disability: El Deafo by Cece Bell
A book involving travel:
A book with a subtitle: Banished: Surviving my years in Westboro Baptist Church by Lauren Drain (Completed in February; 3/5 stars)
A book that's published in 2017: Are you Sleeping by Kathleen Barber 
A book involving a mythical creature:
A book you've read before that never fails to make you smile:
A book about food: Delicious! by Ruth Reichl (Completed in January; 4/5 stars)
A book with career advice: Parenting: 14 Gospel Principles That Can Radically Change Your Family by Paul David Tripp (In Progress)
A book from a nonhuman perspective:
A steampunk novel:
A book with a red spine: Elizabeth is Missing by Emma Healey (Completed in January; 2/5 stars)
A book set in the wilderness: Into the Wild by Jon Krakauer (Completed in February; 3/5 stars)
A book you loved as a child: Chasing Rebird by Sharon Creech (In Progress)
A book by an author from a country you've never visited:
A book with a title that's a character's name:
A novel set during wartime:
A book with an unreliable narrator: We Are All Completely Beside Ourselves by Karen Joy Fowler (Completed in April; 3/5 stars)
A book with pictures: Scrappy Little Nobody by Anna Kendrick (Completed in March; 1/5 stars)
A book where the main character is a different ethnicity than you: Small Great Things by Jodi Picoult (Completed in February; 5/5 stars)
A book about an interesting woman: Handle with Care by Jodi Picot (Completed in April; 3/5 stars)
A book set in two different time periods:
A book with a month or day of the week in the title: Friday Night Knitting Club by Kate Jacobs (Completed in March; 3/5 stars)
A book set in a hotel:
A book written by someone you admire: Adnan's Story by Rabia Chadry 
A book that's becoming a movie in 2017: All the Bright Places (Completed in January; 2/5 stars)
A book set around a holiday other than Christmas: The Husband's Secret by Liane Moriarty (Completed in January; 4/5 stars)
The first book in a series you haven't read before: Vampire Academy by Richelle Mead 
A book you bought on a trip:

Advanced
A book recommended by an author you love: Pictures of You by Caroline Leavitt, recommended by Jodi Picoult
A bestseller from 2016:
A book with a family-member term in the title:
A book that takes place over a character's life span:
A book about an immigrant or refugee:
A book from a genre/subgenre that you've never heard of:
A book with an eccentric character:
A book that's more than 800 pages:
A book you got from a used book sale:
A book that's been mentioned in another book: Someday, Someday, Maybe by Lauren Graham (Completed in July; 2/5 stars)
A book about a difficult topic: Evicted: Poverty and Profit in the American City by Matthew Desmond (Completed in April; 2/5 stars)
A book based on mythology:

Books read in 2017: 31
Progress towards reading goal for the year: 31/50 (62%)
Progress towards reading challenge completion (excluding "Advanced"): 15/40 (37.5%)

I am still looking for suggestions about how to solve my dilemmas. Maybe just picking the prompts from the reading challenge that I know I'll complete and then having some "freebie" options? Hmmmm. Anyone willing to join me for 2018? You can see that challenge HERE

P.S. You can always find my reviews by following along with me on Goodreads.