3.26.2013

Sage's Debut

Welcome to Sage, I am so happy you have decided to join me on this new journey I'm undertaking! Although I am still waiting on a fabulous template to give this blog a pop, I figured I might as well dive right in with my first post. For those of you that don't already know me, please stay tuned for an "About Me" section, which I hope to have up soon as well. In the meantime, I hope you enjoy your stay.

For the past month or so, I have had such hesitations about this whole blogging thing. In the past, I never would have seen myself as the blogging type. Although I have recently gotten into journaling, blogging is so different because others get to read your private thoughts.

Despite this, there are a few brave ladies that put their hearts out on the line regularly. These women have been SUCH an inspiration for me over the past year, and one more recently. As you will later read in my about me, I am just starting my journey as a Christian. A year and a half ago, I would have told you I was an Atheist- my how things have changed! In the early days of learning about Christ, and trying to figure out what He meant in terms of my life, I was fortunate enough to "stumble" (thanks God) upon Renee and Cassie's blogs. These women, via social media, have been able to show me what a love relationship with Christ really looks like, and how to be a Godly woman, two things I was oh so unfamiliar with and really needed guidance in. More recently, I have been blessed to find Nicole's blog, and she too has been an incredible inspiration on why I am starting this new journey. Her love for Christ literally keeps me going some days when I have doubt (something I'll talk a lot about here because I feel it's not mentioned enough [although it is incredibly normal] due to a fear of being seen negatively by other Christians). I have realized that I too want to be that inspiration for someone, even if it does require me taking a risk.

I have gone back and forth about whether or not I could handle another commitment, but to be completely honest, I could feel God's hand on my back pushing me to move forward. I think part of my hesitation also had to do with the fact that I knew my heart would be exposed- out there for everyone to see. If you know me, that's scary. That's where the name of my blog came from.

For the past few days, as I have become more serious about blogging, I have been thinking about a name. Of course I wanted something cute, but I also wanted something personally meaningful. To me, this journey is going to take a lot of vulnerability on my part, something I'm not totally comfortable with, especially when it comes to talking about religion. I have an extremely hard time talking about Christ and my love for Him, especially with those who knew me before I found Him. Even with my boyfriend of a year and a half, who I know God used to bring me to Him, it's not easy. It's even more difficult with my parents and friends, who I used to preach AGAINST religion to. Therefore, these posts are going to take a huge amount of vulnerability on my part. But I 'm ready for that. I have been scared to be too "in your face" as a Christian, or to put my love for Christ out there, which I justified with Matthew 6:5 (And when you pray, you must not be like the hypocrites. For they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and at the street corners, that they may be seen by others). I think I have been deceiving myself by using this verse. I think, in reality, I am really just scared of being judged. I am SO ready to overcome that, and as Bethany Dillon says, "I want to tell the world about Your love."

Anyways, that was a tangent. So, I decided "vulnerable" wasn't quite what I needed, so I looked up synonyms. That brought me to the word "sage," which means wise. I couldn't exactly figure out how the two were in any way related, but I liked it. I then tried to find a verse that touched on the topic of vulnerability and I found John 5:31 (see my tagline). Although I know this verse is taken out of context in this instance, it still spoke directly to me. This verse made it even more clear that I needed to share my journey with others, and to be honest, it brought me so much comfort. It brought into perspective that even though I have quiet time with God daily, and express my love for Him during that time, it means nothing if I can't share with with others. Now, I can't WAIT to share with you all (so much I'm totally blowing off homework tonight which is SO unlike me). The ladies mentioned above have been my only source of fellowship, and I haven't even shared my testimony or anything about myself spiritually with them. I love my church, but there aren't people my age, and my boyfriend is really the only other GOOD Christian friend I have. It's more clear now then ever that I need to do this and I am SO ready to share what God has been doing in my life.

The conclusion to this story is when I later when back to locate "sage" in the thesaurus, I realized I had looked up the world "venerable" instead of "vulnerable." Funny, Lord.



3 comments :

  1. you are so sweet and I'm so proud of this step you are taking... Jesus is so good! :)

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  2. Goodness I love your blog! I had been thinking about blogging for awhile too before I finally decided to do it--and I'm so grateful I did! I'm excited to build a Chesitian community and get to know awesome christian bloggers such as yourself!
    Xoxo.
    Jess

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  3. Just found your blog and your about me page. I can't wait to read more!

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