6.05.2013

Captivating Book Club: Week 1

For the next few weeks, I will be linking up with Cara and a few other gals as we read through "Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul."

Here is a summary of Chapter One that I stole from Cara:

Chapter One: The Heart of a Woman

"Captivating is written to heal the heart of women, to encourage women to be the beautiful, vulnerable people that God created. The book is written by both John and his wife Stasi, but is written for women. They discuss who God created women to be, how women have been hurt and withdrawn from being beautiful and vulnerable, and what repentance of this means. This is a book that shows who God created women to be, and calls women to turn to God to heal the wounds that say they are not beautiful, that say they are not worthy of being loved, and become the women who God created them to be."

Each week, Cara will ask us a number of questions regarding the week's chapter. It is our job to answer them truthfully and wholeheartedly! So, without further ado, here are Week One's Questions:

1. What is one memory you have of feeling so completely and utterly overwhelmed with awe and wonder? (Taken from Stasi's awe-inspiring story of rowing her canoe with her husband, John, and being needed in a time of absolute necessity - to play her role in an adventure!) JUST ONE MEMORY? That's tough. I might have to say that visiting Faerie Glen in the Scottish Highlands was one of the most amazing moments in my life. I blogged about it a bit here. Seriously, just upon stepping off the bus into this place you are overwhelmed with the same awe and wonder described by the author in the book. The place completely overtakes you with its serenity and beauty. I don't think I spoke more than 10 words the whole hour we were there, I was just trying to take it all in and receive.

2. Has it ever crossed your mind that as a creation of the One True Creator, you were made to inflict the same wonder and awe into man? How do you or don't you see that proven and made manifest in your life?
I have a hard time believing that I was created to inflict the same "wonder and awe'" into man. I am always shaming myself, which the book also talks about, and thinking, "I can do better." I am admittedly WAY too hard on myself at times, preventing this from manifesting in my life. Luckily, I have an amazing boyfriend that shows me way more grace than I deserve at times, and reminds me daily that I do inflict these feelings upon into him.

3. When do you feel you officially became a woman and no longer a girl? What caused this in you?
I think I became a woman when I moved out of my parents house at the age of 18. Although I was still financially dependent on them, I have always been incredibly independent, so getting out of the house really made me feel like I was finally a woman. At times I still question whether I really am or not, usually because older generations make comments about how our generation is immature and unprepared for life, but I know I am and that I can take on the world as a STRONG woman instead of a just a girl.

4. Are you proud to be a woman? Or do you feel you have to hide parts of your true self/heart? If so, which?
Honestly, I am so proud. I really feel so empowered lately, especially since starting a blog and becoming a part of this incredibly supportive and encouraging community. I can be extremely open with my readers, even on controverisal topics, and still get positive encouragment. That, I am so thankful for, and it makes me happy to be a woman.


5. Do you find yourself feeling like "too much" and "not enough" all at the same time?
All. the. time. I have these moments where I think I am not doing enough work in terms of my relationship and friendships, as well as my fitness/training. I always feel like I should be doing more. But when it really comes down to it, I know I really do put my all into things, and getting down on myself for not doing "enough" is a waste of time.


6. Is brokenness shown enough in the church to give you hope in your condition? (Do people show that blessing comes even in vulnerability and shame and brokenness? That you don't need your act together to be blessed?)
Although I LOVE my church, I really did relate to this part of the book that discusses a lack of brokenness and vulnerability being displayed in our churches. Maybe it really just is that all the women leaders in my church are full of grace and patience and giving, but then again, maybe it's not. I know women in my church that hide their mental illness, something I feel should not be hidden. Despite this, I do see a fair share of vulnerability and brokenness in my youth group, which does provide me with the realness I need. It also makes me thankful that these kids are willing to be open with me and share their struggles with me so that I can offer them the guidance I sometimes wished I had more of when I was their age.

3 comments :

  1. OH my goodness this is so exciting! i LOVE this book and have read it on my own about 3 times but have never done the discussion/group activities. i might just have to join in :)

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  2. Oh my gosh Cassie - SO GLAD you're doing this with us. I'm finding that others' answers are really resonating with my heart and it's just so beautiful. Isn't God SO wonderful?! SO thankful you're doing this with us!!! AH! Also - if you want to advertise on my blog - I'd LOVE to have you. If you want a 50% off any ad space code, comment on my blog letting me know. You're BEAUTIFUL!

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  3. I'm doing this too and really excited about exploring what God has for my heart in my pursuit of becoming a better woman, wife, child of God.

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