6.05.2013

Love Story: Chapter 3


 

Make sure to read Chapter 1 and Chapter 2 before this post.

During the time before I moved to Scotland, we went through a point where many couples were expecting us to get engaged. Many told us it was necessary for us to stay together. I, on the other hand, was no where near ready to be engaged (I have been telling myself since I was 14 that I would not get married until I was 30, HA!). We hadn't even been together a year yet, and although I knew I loved Matt with all of my heart, I just knew it was not the right timing. I still did not have the relationship with God I wanted, and I just did not feel that I was the woman he deserved just yet. Not to mention I still wanted my independence while in Scotland, and I was still financially dependent on my parents. I felt that these expectations put a lot of stress on our relationship, but as I have mentioned before, we were great about communicating, so the stress did not last long.

We spent the summer before I left working our butts off! We barely saw each other in the hustle and bustle of life. I was working full time serving, nannying on the side, training for triathlons, and studying for the GRE. He was also working crazy hours that were almost completely opposite of mine; we were lucky to see each other for a few hours each week. This was taxing, but in all honesty, it prepared us for the reality of me leaving. Luckily, we were able to take a trip to the North Rim of the Grand Canyon to celebrate our one year before I left in September (I actually arrived in Scotland on the day of our one-year anniversary). This was really special because it was also where we took our first trip together when we first started dating.




In September, I left for Scotland. As I have mentioned before, this was a HUGE time of growth for me, and for our relationship. As Matt was struggling with trying to find a job, I was finding Christ, applying for graduate school, and having some of the best experiences of my life. Our first month went pretty smoothly, but the second month was a trial to say the least. We really struggled. Part of this was because I really was not open enough about how my relationship with Jesus was changing, and I think that made M wonder if I was ever going to know Christ like he wanted me to. Plus, I knew come August of 2013 I would be moving away for graduate school, and I really wanted him to join me. But let me tell you, not knowing WHERE you will be moving is HARD, especially for two Type A individuals. There were many, many tears exchanged during this time.

Despite the trials, he was still SO helpful. He read over my personal statements again and again until I got them perfect. He encouraged me to stay focused when all of my roommates were out partying every night. He sent me sweet post cards and e-mails. This was the point where my view on marriage started to change completely. By November, I pretty much knew he was the person that I wanted to be with. I didn't care if others thought I was too young, too immature, lacking life experience, etc., I just knew I loved him and did not ever want to be without him again after these few months.



Although our relationship was a bit of up and down, it never really compromised my time in Scotland. I enjoyed EVERY minute of it, I was determined to. I owe him so much for being so strong during this time for me.

8 comments :

  1. So sweet!! I love that photo of you two sitting overlooking the ocean too!

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  2. Aw!! I love this...and those pictures of y'all are adorable!!

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  3. :) i just found your blog and i am absolutely in love! you two are so cute and i just love how the Lord works His stories!

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  4. I love that second to last photo; beautiful!!

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  5. I just love your love story!

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  6. Aw did you read the whole thing?! I wrote these SO long ago it's fun to look back on! Thanks girl :)

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  7. Awww, I love your love story. It's so wonderful. Just read all three parts :)

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  8. Oh you're too sweet! Thanks so much for reading! I look forward to getting to know you better!!!

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