People always tell me that I have a unique perspective on Christianity because (a) I didn't grow up in the church and (b) I come from an extremely atheist background. I would have to agree. However, I am starting to realize that this maybe isn't always a good thing.
If you know anything about being a Christian, you know that we are called to be missionaries. That we are COMMANDED to share the gospel, and DECLARE (Psalm 96) the Good News. Can I be real with you all for a moment? I am horrible at declaring.
I have been praying to God for some time to help me with this. Help me share the good news with my friends, neighbors, cowokers, and family. Or at least reveal to me what is preventing me from doing so.
There's an internal struggle when you know that good Christians are supposed to share the gospel. That Christians who TRULY know the gospel and Christ can't WAIT to share the gospel. Where was I failing? I truly believe that God died for our sins, and that we live in a broken world. So why was it so hard for me to tell others about His great sacrifice for us?
Well, recently, I think I realized what has been preventing me from declaring.
My background has caused me to have this mentality, or assumption, that if someone has gotten this far in life without becoming a Christian, or knowing God, then it must be a conscious decision. They must have decided it wasn't for them.
I am overly cautious of being that Christian. The one I wanted to run away and hide from when I was an atheist. I don't want to indoctrinate them if they don't want to be indoctrinated because I know for me, this pushed me further away from ever wanting to know Christ. It was off-putting.
I once heard someone say, "Your assumptions are your windows on the world. Scrub them off every once in a while, or the light won't come in."
It has become so clear to me that these assumptions are what are preventing me from declaring all the good that God has done in my life. That I need to scrub off my windows so that the light can come in.
This assumption strikes me as funny because I didn't know Christ until I was 22. I HAD made the conscious decision NOT to be a Christian. However, something changed. I hate to think that I could be missing opportunities to change someone's WHOLE LIFE by not sharing the gospel with them because I am caught up in my faulty assumptions. What a SAD thought.
So, I ask you all, would you pray for me? Would you pray that I would be able to overcome my own assumptions and declare all that He has done for me?