When Emily posted about different writing styles and processes, I found it hard to determine which category I fit in because I simply don't feel like a writer. Nothing really seemed to adequately describe me. Similar to Emily, I don't really approach blog posts with any kind of structure in mind. I usually just write from the heart and hope that it comes out right. Sometimes I succeed and sometimes I fail, but it seems to work for me. I have been told my voice comes through in my writing which sometimes makes me giggle because it's not something I consciously pay attention to but it's definitely something I desire of my writing. But overall, my awareness about my process is lacking. Aren't writers people who labor over these types of things?
I have always enjoyed writing but I wouldn't quite say I have ever loved it like I hear most bloggers say. So where does this leave me? Does this mean my voice isn't still important? No. Does it mean people don't care what I have to say? Surely not if you're reading this. Does it mean I'm not a writer just because I don't feel like one? Probably not considering I'm writing this post, right?
So why do I refuse to see myself as a writer? Honestly, I'm not totally sure. Maybe it's because I'm a perfectionist and I don't think writing is something you can perfect, therefore I'm scared to label myself in that way. Or maybe it's because I don't appreciate my own voice and writing enough to comprehend that someone else might like it. It might also be because I feel like my identity is invested in so many other things, things I am good at like running and school, that I couldn't possibly add something I don't feel super confident about doing. That might create some sort of expectation I think I have to live up to. Potentially, I just rather leave the title of "writer" to those who really love it, who crave it and live for it, instead of using it for myself. Who knows.
What I do know is that I'm not alone. I know some of us who really are the most amazing writers still struggle with thinking of ourselves as fitting that description. And what a shame. YOU ARE A WRITER. You are a writer whether you write eloquently or whether you write like me, with a lack of intention at times and surely a lack of process. You are a writer because you write. Whether it's in a journal, on a blog, or just a paper for class. You're a writer because your voice matters too much not to call yourself one.
What encourages you to call yourself a writer and what discourages you from doing so?